I was in the water when I heard the first torpedo strike.
The shock of it hitting the deck was too much for me to process.
But I didn’t have time to think about it.
I was at sea, surrounded by the most brutal of weather conditions, the sound of the engines pounding and the smell of diesel exhaust.
I looked at my watch and saw a few minutes left.
I had time to look around and take stock of my situation.
As the waves rose higher, I looked up to see a small, sleek ship, the first I’d seen since I’d been in the ocean.
And just as I looked down at my face, I saw the silhouette of a young sailor.
It was the first time I’d ever seen a submarine.
It took me just a moment to realize that the young man had been in command of the ship that night, the submarine I’d never seen before.
I realized it was my chance to take back control of the war.
I didn´t care what was going on.
I knew that if I wanted to win the war, I had to go down in history as the submarine guy.
I went down to the water and sat on the edge of the deck.
I waited for the submarine to come out.
I started to think.
What could I do?
I looked around for a man to give me orders.
I saw two young men standing there, but I was too nervous to make eye contact with them.
I wasn’t afraid of the consequences, I just wasn’t thinking about it at the time.
I felt the water around me as I waited.
The sound of a boat coming by.
I took a deep breath and let the excitement of victory pass over me.
I walked up to the captain and told him I was going to take command.
I asked him to give us the order to go in.
We were the first ship to go into battle.
I thought, I can’t do this.
I know how to make a good submarine.
But my instincts told me to take my time.
As we prepared to leave, the engine of the boat began to shake.
I jumped into the water.
The captain said, “Get in, baby.”
I jumped in the boat.
I stood on the side of the hull and started paddling around.
The boat was very fast, but the water was so rough.
I paddled slowly, trying to stay in control.
I never thought about going back to the deck for water.
I always thought about the enemy.
I wanted a shot at him.
I kept on paddling.
As I went, I felt my feet getting wet.
The ship kept on rocking and rocking and my feet got wet.
I pulled myself out of the water to look for a place to lie down.
I lay down on the deck of the small boat.
The water was very rough, and I could see my legs were wet.
So I put my feet on the floor.
I leaned over and tried to get my eyes closed.
I got up and stood up to go back to my ship.
I said to the other two men, “Put the gun down.”
I turned around to see if I could get a good shot at the enemy, but he wasn’t there.
I turned back around and went down the water again.
I sat down on a nearby island and just thought, “What could I have done?”
I tried to look up to get a better look at the other men, but they were all staring at me.
The only way to look at them was from the water, so I sat there looking up.
I could just make out the silhouettes of the three men on the shore, but it was very hard to see their faces.
I finally decided I couldn´t wait for the others to come back.
I tried desperately to get out of my boat, but nothing worked.
I decided I would try to go to the ship first.
I put all my weight on my left side and started to paddle.
As my feet sank, I thought about my life and my duty.
It is impossible to lose one’s sight in the dark.
I remember thinking that I would never be able to see again.
But at the same time, I couldn`t get back in the ship.
The sailors on the other side of me had also lost sight.
The two men on my side had also seen the submarine disappear.
The third man was the one that was supposed to go and try to find him.
The other two sailors were still paddling on the island and were getting closer to the shore.
I heard a roar and looked up.
The three men were looking at me, and my head felt like it was going crazy.
The others on the ship were starting to realize I was missing.
But that was when I decided to go after them.
The noise of the propellers was getting louder.
I stepped back